So pretty much, I am at Corey's work again, it seems to be the best way for me to use the internet. bleh.
Not much has changed, I mean we left for Hurricane Isaac, went to see his mother in Oklahoma, it was nice seeing new scenery but I will never do that the same way again, I drove straight through 13 hours stopped 3 times to pee on the way there, just me driving, because he is afraid to drive in the rain. Then on the way back, which he swore he would help me drive on, he pussied out because it started sprinkling right after I asked him to do it.
I have no idea where my weight is, someone stole the batteries out of my scale, and seeing as it is just me and him living together and the dog doesn't have posable thumbs, I am pretty sure it was him, which drunken Corey, denies the whole thing.
Also, we finally had a serious talk and I think he is going to go on his own when this lease is up, he doesn't want me to move with him to Oklahoma because if he tries to start fresh and brings girls home, he doesn't want me to cause problems...
Whatever I am over it, I am perfectly content with being miserable on my own with no friends (except my best friend, and my internet homies), I need to spend more time focused on me and my weight anyways, I drive him around so much it gets hard, I have no time for myself.
I do not want to say that I am in love with him or anything, but I do care about him, and I will miss him. I never thought I would be so used to someone else being there all the time. I mean we hang out almost 24/7, it almost makes me sad on the nights where I am too tired or he has to go in early so we can not spend any time hanging out.
He is an asshole though, through and through. He has good intentions, I mean he does care, he is just so jaded and he makes everyone else miserable because of his fucked up opinions. He is a borderline womanizer, basically I mean he has a chance to be saved, but I doubt it will happen, he will be just like his boss, he will chase down the skank rose until he is so angry at all flowers that he burns them all; never realising the whole time that there are thousands of other flowers around the corner and just as beautiful but with a much more appealing fragrance. ( no offense to roses, I think they are beautiful, but metaphors, you know.)
Actually as a side note, my middle name is Rose.
Anyways, I do not know what else to say.
I have just been a little bleh lately.
I got my kinect back, I do not know if I posted about that yet or not, but my ex roomate broke my other one and Corey was so kind to replace it so I could start working out again. Now all I need is an elliptical and then I can shut off my gym membership I rarely use. (too far away.)
I feel like my life is just in a weird limbo state right now. I want to start school so bad right now, but I can not afford it and so far it does not look like Federal Aid wants to help me.
Well love you all,
Caspra<3
